Sometimes, I don't want to be by myself, but actually by myself. Okay, I'm a little confused now 😂. To elaborate a bit, Kamilla and I sit down and read in the living room next to each other sometimes. We don't talk or anything, just in each other's presence. That's what I mean by alone, but together.

Spending time with myself doing nothing helps clear my mind sometimes. Rocky road icecream and some homemade donuts feel like my besties soemtimes, and I feel a billion times better afterwards (or sometimes it really makes me face something I'm running away from).

I just warmed up a bit thinking about this: a lunch date by myself in the forest. I love just taking my notepad down to the deadend to draw for a few hours. No noise at all either 🙂

I love just going to the park some nights to shoot ball by myself. Sort of the same reason as spending time by myself as home, but it's a lot less thinking involved tbh. As much as I pushed Roberto back before, I wish he was still there with me on the court.

I love to help everyone, but there's sometimes where I just say no. It could be a random person at school asking me to sign a jersey. Maybe someone asking for a ride. Even Kamilla asking me to stop by after practice. I need my cooldown sometimes. A little scared of the world. Not the world really, but people. Interactions. Being a human being, I guess.